The escort perspective of ending a first booking

When an escort ends her first booking prematurely

At Society Service the safety and well being of my escorts always comes first. Every escort is free to set her own boundaries and to state them clearly. Sometimes that even means an escort decides to end her first booking early because something does not feel right.

Escort Maria experienced this recently during her first booking. Although she had prepared thoroughly and felt completely ready for the step, her body reacted in an unexpected and unmistakable way. This moment of doubt and the strength to name her limit shows how important it is that an escort can always trust her feelings. In the previous blog you read the client’s perspective. Below you will find Maria’s personal story, in which she speaks honestly and openly about her experience and how she came to her decision. It shows the courage and integrity behind her choice.

Why I decided to quit being a high class escort during my first booking

"Sometimes a thought lingers quietly in the background for years. Not loudly present, but never entirely gone either. For me, that thought was the idea of working as a high class escort. It wasn’t a whim or a fantasy, but a genuine curiosity. I wondered what such an experience would be like, how it would feel to share intimacy in a setting where desires are not hidden but openly acknowledged and accepted.

Still, I never acted on it. When the idea first came to me, I was simply too young. Later, the right moment just never seemed to come. Only much later, when my life felt balanced, did the thought return. I felt healthy, independent, free and confident. Everything was flowing. And suddenly, the idea resurfaced, but this time it felt different. Not as something I was just thinking about, but as something I could actually do. I decided to go for it.

From my very first contact with Marike, everything felt right. She took the time to get to know me, really listened, and provided clear, honest information about all aspects of the work. Not just in conversation, but also in writing. I received detailed documents and clear guidelines. At no point did I feel pressured or overwhelmed. It was exactly because everything was handled with such care and respect that I felt truly taken seriously. That allowed me to say with conviction: I know what I’m doing, and I want this. I had no doubts.

Once my profile went live, Marike told me it might take a little while before the first booking came in. That made sense. But within a day, I was already booked for later that week. Shortly after, a second booking followed, also scheduled that same week. It surprised me, but it also felt like a sign of confirmation. At the same time, I noticed that it had an effect on me. Since I hadn’t even had my first experience yet, the thought of that second appointment added pressure. In hindsight, I probably should have guarded my boundaries more and given myself a bit more space. But at the time, I just went along with it.

My first booking was in Rotterdam. It was quite a journey, but I actually liked having that time on the train. A moment to myself, in my own little bubble. I felt calm, had everything with me, and still felt ready to take this step. When I arrived at the agreed location, I saw him almost right away. I was a bit nervous and accidentally introduced myself using the wrong name. A small moment of confusion, but he responded kindly and casually, and seemed to forget about it instantly. That reassured me.

We went out for lunch and the conversation flowed easily. He spoke with enthusiasm about his many hobbies, which made it easy to keep the conversation going. The atmosphere was relaxed, we laughed, there was even a bit of flirting. Everything pointed toward this being a pleasant first experience.

But on the way back to the hotel, something happened that I hadn’t expected. Out of nowhere, I was struck by a strong headache, nausea, and shallow breathing. It felt like I was being pulled out of my own body, like I was watching myself from a distance. My body started to resist. Not gently, but very clearly. Something was wrong.

Because I had prepared myself so carefully, I recognized what was happening right away. Marike had told me from the beginning that I could always trust myself. That I could say no, even at the very last moment. This work is not about enduring or pushing yourself past your limits. It’s about making free choices. That thought gave me something to hold onto.

I told him honestly that I didn’t want to continue. That it didn’t feel right, and I preferred to stop. I was nervous to say it, because I didn’t know how he would react. But he remained understanding and respectful. Of course, I could see that he was disappointed - and so was I - but he stayed calm and kind. He even asked if I wanted to talk about it. He gave me space, without judgment. And that made me feel seen, rather than rejected.

After saying goodbye, I called Marike right away. I was shaken, not because I regretted my decision, but because I hadn’t seen it coming. Everything up to that point had felt right. I was prepared and certain. And still, my body had given such a strong signal. Marike listened. She took my feelings seriously and confirmed what I already knew deep down: it’s okay. We spoke again the next day to sort out a few practical things. Together, we concluded that this path, at least for now, isn’t the right one for me. And that’s fine.

Looking back now, I feel many things. Disappointment, because I had genuinely hoped it would be a good fit. Surprise, because I came across something inside myself I hadn’t expected. But most of all, I feel grateful. Because I tried. Because I listened to my gut feeling. And because I felt supported throughout the whole process. There was space to question, to feel, and in the end, to stop. Without anyone making me feel bad about it.

This adventure was short, but by no means meaningless. I walk away with no regrets. On the contrary, it gave me clarity. And maybe that is the most valuable thing an experience can give you."